bebelala

i want to believe
and then never turn back
and have no regrets

i want to believe
i want to hurry back home to you

i want to believe that ur the one i dreamed for 29 years
i want to believe that by the end of 2009 i can make it alive

i want to believe that its just too important to stay the way it has been
i want to believe that one day i will understand this faith

and i wanna believe in your words when you say i love you

i dreamed about you for 29 years

i want to believe
I WANT TO BELIEVE
i really want to believe

my sis has been admitted to the hospital again
this time in the US..
please pray for her.

if she cant sing
then she surely can rap...

I think we can do this..
I really believe that by working together and greater understanding and tearing down false ideologies
we can bring peace to the world.

:)
look at that..
this is what leaders should be doing

i've been emphasizing to ppl around me the difference between judaism and zionism
and the difference between spirituality and nationalism
now the rabbi speaks for himself

:)

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You're a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on you're back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
I want more fans, you want more stage
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

You are always trying to keep it real
I'm in love with how you feel
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me
So why can't, you forgive me?
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

let it be

Dear Lord and Father of mankind,
Forgive our foolish ways!
Re-clothe us in our rightful mind,
In purer lives thy service find,
In deeper reverence praise.
In deeper reverence praise.

In simple trust like theirs who heard,
Beside the Syrian sea,
The gracious calling of the Lord,
Let us, like them, without a word
Rise up and follow thee.
Rise up and follow thee.

O Sabbath rest by Galilee!
O calm of hills above,
Where Jesus knelt to share with thee
The silence of eternity,
Interpreted by love!
Interpreted by love!

Drop thy still dews of quietness,
Till all our strivings cease;
Take from our souls the strain and stress,
And let our ordered lives confess
The beauty of thy peace.
The beauty of thy peace.

Breathe through the heats of our desire
Thy coolness and thy balm;
Let sense be dumb, let flesh retire;
Speak through the earthquake, wind, and fire,
O still small voice of calm!
O still small voice of calm!

I SCORED AN INTERVIEW!!!
TODAY WISH ME LUCK!!!!

Love Song by Sarah Borrealis sums up my thoughts about love and my life partner.
i just dont want to give in to any other convention except for this

everytime everytime this love thing comes in i freeze or run....

Head under water
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while
The breathing gets harder even I know that

AND USUALLY because this is the time they will all act chivalrously, and gentlemanly, they will

You made room for me

BUT because i'm a logical rational neurotic, my way or no way woman........

but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to

and i rationalize it by thinking,,,

Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this

i recognize ur efforts, but ur stifling me, or....

You mean well but you make this hard on me

and i don't care who u are, what you do, i won't care and i wont put any effort...
and if you wanna leave or give up, or be a bitch about it...then i know who u are to me, nothing at all... or in sing hum mode......

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you asked for it
'Cause you need one you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you tell me it's
Make or breaking this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving
I'm gonna need a better reason to write you a love song today
Today

I'm not some unreasonable crazy bitch...I have reasons for behaving like this...

I learned the hard way

And I'm not stupid, gullible, naive, or desperate for a partner, I already know...

That they all say things you want to hear

All the bad bad bad memories, and experiences of those close to me....

My heavy heart sinks deep down under you
And your twisted words your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry

Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am

So...

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you asked for it
'Cause you need one you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you tell me it's
Make or breaking this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving
I'm gonna need a better reason to write you a love song today

But somehow despite how to difficult I can be.. I am hopeful..

Promise me you'll leave the light on
To help me see with daylight my guide gone
'Cause I believe there's a way you can love me because I say

And when that miracle comes true

I won't write you a love song
'Cause you asked for it
'Cause you need one you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you tell me it's make or breaking this
Is that why you wanted a love song
'Cause you asked for it
'Cause you need one you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you tell me it's make or breaking this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If your heart is nowhere in it
I don't want it for a minute

I'll do this if I have to... :) and if I know your worth it.. and u will know who u r cause u'll be a gem..

Babe I'll walk the seven seas when I believe that there's a reason to
Write you a love song today
Today

Anyway I'm in a very confident and happy mood

I HAVE BEEN TRANSFERRED TO UOW!!!!!!
http://www.uow.edu.au

all I can say is that
just pray to the lord
cause he's gonna make it happen
All praise to Him. Alhamdullilah.
I'm grateful.

and there's one more
I just want to share

Today! 5km in 32 minutes

I'm really happy with the timing because
when I was 13 I could only clock 4.8km in 42 minutes
IMAGINE MANY YEARS LATER I BREAK MY OWN RECORD

Its too soon for me to run my first 15 km
but I'm moving in that direction
sundown is 84km
slowly slowly

in malay there's this very cute phrase I really like to use
sikit sikit lama lama jadi bukit